Struggling to stay afloat!

These last two weeks have been very stressful. Not only has the work load and number of tests increase, but after being in Ocean Springs over spring break and having made lots of friends who I barely see because I am a lowly freshman and they are sophomores and juniors. I am probably getting myself way to worked up about this. It is probably not as bad as I make it seem or think it is. I have been known to do this and am often way too stressed. And I probably should have taken my depression pills sooner because now I think it has come back rearing its ugly head again, because lately I have been wanting to retreat to my room, to be on my computer and just watch TV. Sound familiar? yes it does.

But the last two nights I have gone down in the social lounge to study/be around people. This is a pretty common thing for me, I love being around people, even if we don't talk it does help. Another one of my problems is that I'm very homesick. I miss my family and am dreding these last few weeks because I am going to have to work hard, because right now my grades are not where they should be.

And another thing! Why doesn't Luther require Professors to update grades on My.Luther at midterm? It doesn't make sense, I'm know I'm not the only one worrying about where my grades will be and it would relieve a lot of stress if we knew where we stood at least mid-way through the semester.

I am trying to cheer up, I really am, but it is hard. I really don't have many good friends anymore that live in Brandt. They are all friends but no one I really hang out with much. I also am sick of my roommate situation. I would so be feeling better if we actually talked to each other instead of being MUTE ALL THE TIME!!!! Arggghh, and trust me I have tried several times to remedy the situation by starting conversations but all I get is a short response and then its back to silence. Also I asked a friend (he wont be named, but he knows who he is) if he wanted to be roommates with me next year, I thought it was worth a shot so I shot him a facebook message. I still haven't gotten a response! WTF! Does he think I can't handle rejection or something? Its almost worse not being answered then knowing how the other person feels. That is really a pet peeve of mine. C'mon people don't just ignore it just tell the person what you have to say. They probably wont be very hurt or anything. Arrrgggh..

Anyways it is way to late and I should have been in bed 2 hours ago. I'll write later....maybe.